While there is no dearth of mutual affection between John Abraham and Varun Dhawan-so much so that John has taught Varun to lose his inhibitions about his body-there is one point of dispute between the two .

Awards. Varun loves them. John doesn't believe in them.

John Abraham feels he may not be deserving of the awards and will therefore not attend awards functions. Says the actor, "I never go for awards functions. I don't want any awards. They've become a joke. I don't think going to awards is wrong. But I can't do it. Performing at these awards would make me feel like a performing monkey."

John Abraham also has problem with dancing publicly. "I can't dance on stage for 500 people. I can't dance at functions. I've heard how people talk about actors who perform on stage. To me it is a monkey act."

He won't even attend awards functions for films involving colleagues. "If Dishoom wins any awards, Varun will be there dancing and clapping. I won't. He is a sweet transparent boy. Maybe I don't deserve awards. So I won't get them. And I won't go."

John will continue to work his way through the projects he believes in. "I've no fear of failure. I'm like a blinkered horse. I don't look at the work other people are doing. I concentrate on my own work. I don't go for parties. I sleep by 9.30 pm. I meet some of my from my friends from the film industry when they are coming home after a party and I am on my morning jog. The beauty of this industry is acceptance."